This little piggy went to market

in which I found some killer BBQ at our local Farmers Market…

I’ve kept busy this morning. I’m not used to having the weekends off so I sometimes don’t know what to do with myself. I slept in ’til about 9 or so, made some coffee and had a smoke in the shed while waiting. Pretty much my normal routine every morning. Finally got motivated and decided to get dressed and do something constructive.

Since it’s been so hot lately, I decided to go ahead and get the yard mowed before it got too hot. Ended up just doing the front, set some sprinklers and called it good. I might get to the back later but I doubt it. Tomorrow morning will be better. Anyway, I finished up with the mowing, hopped in the shower cuz I smelled like hell and decided to get my head shaved.

Stopped by the ATM to grab some cash and headed down to Antonio’s for a good shavin’. Love those guys, they do a good job and always trim my eyebrows. hehe I had to wait for quite a while cuz everyone and their kids were waiting for a cut. All good.

Decided to take a walk downtown so I stopped at the Farmers Market to take a gander. I wandered around for a bit and stumbled across a killer little BBQ stand the smelled heavenly. Checked the menu and the Pulled Pork sandwich was calling my name. I mean, omgwtfbbqsauce! I paid 5.00 for a delicious, fresh, juicy sammy that I quickly drenched with their awesomesauce. Found the nearest place to sit and devoured it. Damn good! May have to go back for another in the near future.

Back at the house now and have decided to chill and maybe play some WoW later. May go run and instance or see if I can PuG a 10 man Naxx or something. Either way, I’m gonna try to stay out of the heat today and rehydrate my body a bit. Perhaps a little nap to boot!

All for now…

KJ

Forecast…HOT!

is which the temp is hitting the century mark in the valley…

Well, it looks like Summer is really here. The temps have been in the 90’s last week and today is suppose to reach 100 or better. Staying inside in pretty good idea if you can. I’ve been out this morning water the yard and all of the flower beds before it gets too hot. Looks like we’ll be staying in the upper 90’s for the upcoming week. Would love to get out to the golf course but not his week. I just don’t take the heat like I used to.

Speaking of golf, has anyone been watching Tom Watson’s run at the 138th Open Championship? Unreal! The man will be 60 years old in a couple of months and he’s kickin’ the shit out of it. He’s been leading for the first three rounds and will tee off Sunday with a one shot lead over the field. What a story. I’m totally pullin’ for him along with the rest of the world. I would love to see him pull it off as it will make for great history. GO TOM!

In other news, I’ve been given a new schedule at the day job. I recently asked for a cut in hours, which I thought was a good idea at the time but now it’s a different story. So, I’m back to 30+ hours and will be taking a refresher course with some sales training vids to sharpen my game. gotta get my numbers up and add to the companies value and success.

I’ve been doing just 20 hours a week for the last two weeks which has given me ALOT of time to deal with and quite honestly, I’ve been going crazy. I’m the kind of guy that needs a routine. Don’t get me wrong, I like to have time to myself but this was driving me nuts. I mean, once I’ve gotten caught up on all the simple things in life like, yard work, laundry, cleaning the car and apartment, what the hell is there left to do? I’ve been pacing around feeling all anxious and weird and I just don’t like it. So, I got some hours back and hopefully will stop feeling all weird.

Tonight I’m gonna go grub on Sushi with M down at Aloha Sushi and then maybe go grab a cocktail or two. I’ve been craving the Sushi. Want the Sushi. Need the Sushi. I freakin’ love that stuff and seem to need it every few weeks or so. Thank God we have place that serves up killer rolls and I hope they never go out of business. So support ‘em, go to Aloha Sushi and enjoy.

Well that’s about all I have for now. Trying to post at least once a week. I mean what’s the good in having a Blog if you don’t use it, right? Anyway, all for now and more to come…

KJ

Done with the week

in which I’m glad it’s over…

Just got off the clock and came home to sit in the shed and have a cocktail. I worked today even though I was suppose to have it off due to the new schedule. I agreed to work it cuz it was my co-workers birthday and no one else would do it. It was busy so the time passed quickly but it still made for a six day week with only one day off. Will have Sunday off to recover and then right back at it on Monday.

It’s been a long and roughsauce week for me. Been dealing with my internal landscape and getting my head in a good place. Adjusting to the new schedule and trying to get some shit done around here. I managed to get the shed cleaned up, the yard is looking pretty good, did a bunch of laundry and picked up my apartment. Getting off at 2pm has given me lots of time to do things. I got out and played 9 holes or golf with @smugirishman on Thursday. Had a good time and played well. Shot a 45 on the front 9 and called it a day. Striking the ball well but still got into troubles a few times. All in all, it was good times and I hope I can get out there more often. Love that silly game.

Been trying to keep busy and keep my head in the now. So far so good. An idle mind is the Devil’s workshop as they say so I’ve been keeping pretty busy and thinking good thoughts about life in general.

Setup some new sets on my Flickr account and updated a few too. I have been slacking and haven’t been keeping it organized very well. I seem to have accumulated a ton of pics from the last year. Glad I have them as it’s nice to look back at all the cool shit I’ve done.

Other than that I’m just glad this week is over. Who knows what the days ahead will bring but I’m ready for whatever the Universe hands me.

All for now…

KJ

Blog it out…

as they say…whoever THEY are…

I have decided to take my recent breakup head on, hoping to find some relief…

Where to start? For those of you who know and those of you who don’t, Mush and I broke up last week. I have been trying my best to get my head wrapped around it and find the strength to carry on in a mature fashion. After all, this isn’t High School.

About a year ago Mush came into my life. We seemed to hit it off and I was more than happy to get involved with her. It wasn’t long before I was totally falling in love with her and was beaming with pride. I wanted a GF and I got one. Finally.

I want to say that for the last year I have had more fun and more happiness in my life than ever before. No joke. We spent a lot of time together doing so many cool things. She was singing for the Coyote Kings and I got the chance to see her perform at many different venues, from blues festivals to bar gigs I was there. Loved to hear her sing and loved to take photos of her and the band. We traveled all over the place, stayed at plush hotels and reesty dives, heard many bands, met lots of great people, ate great food, saw great things and simply had a blast. We went to Vegas for her Birthday and partied our asses off and recently we went to Dallas and she introduced me to Amma which was totally awesome.

She became my best friend, my lover, my everything. She was always there for me no matter what. I shared every part of my life with her and never held back for the first time in my life. I never lied to her about anything or any part of my life. At last, I could just be me, finally! I was accepted for who I am and that’s that. What an awesome thing. I have never trusted anyone or anything with my soul and I will always be grateful for her kind and loving spirit. She never judged me and always listened to me with an open mind and an open heart. I feel that I did the same for her.

My mind is flooded with all of the good times we have had. We never fought, we never said mean or hurtful things to each other. We treated each other with love and respect, which is a first for me. It just seemed so effortless. I can’t count the number of times we laughed and laughed about life and all of it’s twists and turns. We cryed to each other when we were sad, hurting or scared. We held each other closely, loved each other deeply and passionately. These are the things that I remember, these are the things I will hold dear to my heart.

I knew from the beginning that she really wasn’t looking for a BF and she was honest about that. I had hoped that over time she would change her mind but that is not the case. As time went by I knew that someday this would happen. I didn’t want it to but knew that it would. It really set in when she asked me for some room to breathe a couple of months ago. I knew that it was only a matter of time and we were going to have to break things off.

I tried to act like it wasn’t happening but it was. I started to become depressed the more I thought about it. I wanted to believe that things would work themselves out. I wanted this love to never end. But here’s the deal, I can’t make anyone give me something that they don’t have to give no matter how bad I want it. Simple as that. Yeah it sucks, but it’s the truth. She was honest with me and I respect that. I know that she would never hurt me on purpose. I think she probably feels like crap and didn’t intend to or want to hurt my feelings. I also hope that I she knows that I never wanted to hurt hers either.

I have always told her that I want nothing more than for her to ‘just be her’. I never wanted or needed her to change herself. I loved her for exactly for who she is and always will. She is an awesome girl and I will always treasure the days we spent together. She taught me to love and honor myself. Today, I am a better man because of these things. She allowed me to love and be loved. She taught me to trust. What more could you ever ask for? She is truly beautiful through and through.

So the bottom line is this…I have had the best relationship of my life! Yeah, I hurt. Yeah, it sucks that it had to end. Yeah, life will go on and we will both survive. I can only hope that those of you who read this will have a chance to have what I’ve had. It has been truly wonderful.

I wrote all of this with the hopes that the sadness in my heart would go away. I don’t want to hurt anymore. I’m sick of crying. I want to be whole and feel strong again. And when that day comes I’ll probably give her a call and say “Hey my friend, miss ya!”

all for now…

KJ

Good times, Bad times

you know I’ve had my share…

Good times – I just got back from a trip to Dallas with M to meet Amma. It was a very good experience for me and really helped my interior landscpape. I got Darshan twice and can’t begin to tell you how cool it is. The flight was good, the food was awesome and I totally wanna do it again next year.

Good times – I finally got Supramax (my rogue) leveled to 80 and I’m really diggin’ the end game aspect of WoW. Running raids and instances now, farming rep and gear with groups is really fun. It seems like there are no limits to the game.

Good times – As you all know I have been in a realationship with Mush for a little over a year now. I have had the most wonderful times and she has opened my eyes to the world around me and taught me many things. We have lived and laughed and always treated each other with the uttmost respect. She is my best friend ever and will always be.

Bad times – Mush and I broke up last night. I want more of a realtionship than she is able to give and that’s ok. I respect her honesty and will always love her deeply. I hope that we will remain the best of friends thoughout the years as no one could ever fill her shoes. It hurts really bad but I’m sure that i will be able to get a grip on the pain and feel better shortly.

all for now

KJ