Grumpy ol’ bastard

Posted under Rants by KJ

in which I bitch about things…

The Weather: It’s been 100 degrees or better for a week now and I’m just not liking it. I don’t really take the heat that well and it tends to make me down right irritable, dehydrated, bitchy and tired. I know it’s summer and I get that but it would be nice if it would cool off a bit. Looks like we may get a break next Thursday. Keep your fingers crossed. Also, trying to keep the yard alive and watering flowerbeds three times a day is just, well, getting old.

My PC: I just built this rig about about 6 months ago. The hardware rocks but I’m starting to doubt this Vista Ultimate install. It was pretty stable for a while but now it seems to just lock up whenever it feels like it. Doesn’t matter if I’m playing WoW or just sitting at my desktop, it will lock and I have to reboot. It’s virus free and doesn’t have any bullshit running on it. One of the cleanest cans I’ve ever had but the locking up is starting to piss me off in a bad way.

My Brain: I’ve been having a really hard time keeping my shit together. I feel like an emotional basket case. I’m frustrated. I can’t seem to NOT cry on a daily basis. I’m pissed and basically depressed. I have moments of clarity and then right back in the bullshit of being all scatter-brained and quite honestly, I HATE IT! I mean WTF! I hurt and it’s pissing me off to no end.

WoW: I’ve been at 80 now for a while and really like my toon but this shit is getting a little boring. I mean, how many Heroic Instances does a guy have to run to get geared and be content. I find myself not wanting to play cuz it just gets old after a while. Wanna start running 25 man Naxx and get some better gear soon. I don’t know, it just seems like a waste of time. Sometimes I wanna play, sometimes I don’t but either way it’s losing it’s luster.

Health: OK, I know I drink and smoke too much. It’s bad for me and I need to stop it. My Mistress, Vodka is whooping my ass. I’m dehydrated from it and the heat doesn’t help. And with the drinking comes smoking. A fucking pack a day and that’s that. So between the two, I’m basically committing suicide on the installment plan, gah. Must curtail this action. Must. Not to mention that I have been eating once a day and have lost about 12 pounds in the last 30 days. This can’t be good.

Finances: Money is tight. I have less hours now and make less money. Simple as that and I’m not liking it a bit. My bills haven’t changed nor my ways. I have a little saved up for a rainy day but it won’t take me very far. I can’t help but think that it’s not long before I’ll be out of a job, collecting unemployment and making some sort of a career change. Our economy is tanking and times are tough for everyone but I can’t help but feel that a storm is brewing on the horizon and I’m just not sure if I’m ready to tackle it.

Boredom: I’m fucking BORED! All the time! It’s driving me bat-shit-crazy! I do all the day to day bullshit and find myself pacing around the house wishing I had something to do or somewhere to go. TV rots my fucking brain, PC shit gets to me after a while, I don’t wanna go to the bar, I don’t wanna get baked, I don’t wanna talk on the phone and everything else just appears to be boring. I don’t know, it’s fucking killing me.

Shall I go on? Oh, I can…

Anyway, as you can see, I’m in a bind and need some relief in the worst kind of way. I know that this will all pass sooner or later but that doesn’t mean that I have to like it.

In other news, I went out to Wildhorse and checked out the Popoffs last Saturday. I must say that they are one of the best cover bands I’ve ever heard. Tight as hell! Don’t know anything about them and didn’t even know they where playing but had a good time. Had some drinks, played some cards and headed home.

Well that’s it for now. Sorry for the rant and didn’t mean to come off like a douche-bag or anything. Just writing what’s on my mind.

RAAAAAAARRR!

KJ